today was........

today was ok . school needs to end asap. just let me get my class ring and call me senior all ready! this year like any year has its ups and downs but i have learned to discern what i really want for me and not for anyone else. the only problem is getting my ideas through to other people. i try to be the best but its like my best isnt the best and thats what they look for. i really cant take it anymore im gonna be me and thats it, period. unarmed has a long way til we can really be confident and say that we have first place in all categories again like last drill meet. oh and did i mention that our commander wont even be there bringing us on the floor. so guess who it comes down to. yeah me and freddricka. if that doesnt make things worse. all i have to do is regualation and thats nothing but its my first competition bringing the team on the floor. so i have way more responisibilty than im used to. i just pray we get this together.a dn next tuesday we have CFI the ROTC "superbowl". and im scared my platoon isnt on top of their game. our drill sucks. Literally sucks .its like everything that they learned in the beginning of the year was thrown out the window like they wouldnt ever need it again. yeah thats my life right about now. not to mention how irrational my parents are acting towards me and treating me like im retarded and cant make my own decisions. they say they dont want me to make my own mistakes but the more the keep me from making mistakes only draws me closer to them. UGH!! oh well just about one year and a month i wont have to deal with this anymore. thank god.. i cant wait to be 18 because thats when i get out of this jail cell of life im living in.