champagne for my real friends real pain for my sham friends..

so yeah this past couple of days have been really eyeopening. some good others not so good. all in all i guess i have to take what ever is there in front of me and learn from it..i leave on Friday to go to Washington D.C. I'll be there for about four days for a academic team competition. hahah hopefully we do well. but yeah i must say that alot has been thrown at me and its all a learning experience.

well today was Fathers day so i got my dad a cake and a card that was hilarious. it was one of those taljing cards and it had the simpsons. need i say more.. yeah my brother got him some clothes cause my dad really needed to be upgraded so that was fun..my mom had a barbecue too: chicken, steak, fried green tomatoes some more cake and some other yummy stuff..my cousin and the fam came over it was fun. we stayed and played with my puppies and made dumb videos on justintv...

oh did i mention my brothers back from iraq! yeah he came in last week after being in iraq for about a year.. im so glad hes back home safe even though the only time i see him is when i got to my dads house and hes always asleep cause he stays out late and i only see his back with a really awesome looking tattoo i havent ever seen before but its awesome...my dads house actually looks like a tornado came through it cause my bro just has everything everywhere. the only things that are accessible is the laptop and the PS3.

but yeah some week ive had thank god i have puppies they love you unconditionally and will always be there for you and thank god for SONIC ! other wise i wouldnt be sipping this awesome caramel hazelnut jave chiller...

my brain is like a sponge that is oversaturated with junk....

ok i dont know where the hell that came from.. but anyways thats how i've been feeling lately. its like i have so much going on and so much to think about i cant retain anything properly..things from school to drill team stuff going on at home going to New Orleans RELATIONSHIPS.i havent been in one since april 1st but that doesnt mean i havent talked to people. the only thing though is that i keep up my end of the stick but someone always lets me down. i hate that so much but i cant help but say its ok and move on. its almost like i cant say no even when i should tell them like it is. now dont get me wrong i say what i want when time comes but certain situations just make me forgive and forget too easily and im afraid that that is one of my biggest flaws...its what always gets me hurt and im sick and tired of the same old games guys have tried to play on me and i cant stand it..almost like they dont understand that sometimes there are girls out there that are worth more than a one night stand or someone that they know is real easy and will put out at the drop of a hat..its like selfworth isnt even in the picture anymore.. why do people do this?? and why do people get that idea of me???

this makes no sense to me at all..i try to be the best that i can be and i have standards but yet this never stops them.. why cant i one day just find that one guy who doesnt care about all that other crap that supposedly makes them "down" with everyone and just rather care about the things in life and the things are special and important instead of putting ona front all the time in front of their boys and "act" like they run things... why cant there be guys who are real and wont put on a show???

anyways enough of my venting.. this has really just bothered me lately. dont get me wrongal guys are not like this at all. its just that now its like a trend to be the type of guy who only looks for the physical things froma relationship..

so yeah!!! im back!!!

yeah i really never went anywhere i just havent blogged or even been online in like almost two months..but yeah alot has changed. school is finally out and i got a job so i guess im trying to gain some sort of independence in my house and i guess its better than my regular routine of always staying home and doing nothing. ive even started working out more often, i guess my idea of having a great senior year is to first look the part. i've kinda slacked on staying in shape cause of stress so hopefully i can use this summer to get me to actually doing something worthinwhile. anyways i work at this nail shop, i guess its all right for a part time job but i feel more like a house maid there. all i do is clean and take nail polish off of people and then my bosses ask me to eat like every ten minutes. but yeah for now its gonna have to do. my first thing i wanted to get out of the way was my license but i thought about it and im putting that on hold for now..i really dont go anywhere even when i want to so theres no point in me trying now when i still need to find the time. but i guess this just gies me more time to practice.

oh and about school, on the last day my instructor talked to us and said tht theres a possibility of him being transferred to another school. like OMGGGGG!!! what the crap..that was like one of my nightmares coming to life..so i guess drill team will nver be the same even thought we start practices next week.. anyways i guess thats a long enough update on the past month..