if i knew love was in vain..

well to start off so much has happened in the past four days or so it seems. i finally started working and thank god i found a job im happy with. other than the fact that im on my feet all day and it seems as if they are gonna burn off in hell one of these days but who cares im making it bank LOL. i should actually get paid really well here since im a sales associate instead of a cashier so i can make commission of my weekly sales. so extra money is always a good thing.

trying to push my mom and dad into getting me a car soon and letting me get my license so they wont have to deal with me all the time and i can be a bit more independent. so hopefully now that im working they will notice that more.

well anyways that really all thats gone on haha and i said that alot has happened in the past four days. I LIED....

THE ENDD....

i wanna hlod em like they do in texas plays fold em let em hit me raise it baby stay with me, i <3 it..

finally the week is almost over!! yeah i dont know why im all that excited but i am.im gonna hang with Jess with weekend and have some fun for once this summer. i was going to dance at the taste of culture event at the center but it seems like daniel is busy and i really need to find replacements once im gone.hmm.. guess my dancing days are coming to a close...and to think about it so is high school.. its a bittersweet feeling.

well my mom barbecued again. she does this at least once a week. which taught us that my dogs like to eat corn or the leftover ears of corn. they used them like chew toys and i didnt know if i should let them have the corn or take them away.

practice for my team starts on monday and im really excited to get this year started early.i havent "stepped" in a while and it just feels weird. i also have administrative work to do being the battalion executive officer. geeze i think that i bit off more than i could chew. its more like they gave me more than i can chew..

well this gets so boring i doubt anyone reads this which would mean that im jst really talking to myself or using this as a "public" journal. maybe not the best idea...

here we go go go again...

well i noticed that my blogs are so pointless and a waste of time to write and to read yet its addicting.

in the past week i got a job had the interview started the job and quit.that was all in a matter of two days to be honest. restaurants are not my thing if u cant tell.oh well to be honest i don't mind not working at least i can relax and just do whatever i want, sorta..that was a joke. really all this past week ive been taking care of my dad who just had surgery.

i even spent a day with my brother. very random day and on the spur of the moment but it was fun. we went to the boardwalk and went shopping and for the first time i found someone who is more addicted to shopping than i am.its becoming a very big problem because he cant stop buying stuff. but nonetheless it was a fun day. we talked and held an actual conversation. it was a change from the typical awkward silence and or bossing each other around.

my dogs have gone nuts too. its like they are always restless so they entertain themselves with our shoes and my moms plants.they even found a way to hide underneath the house but like to wake us up cause they get lost and cant find their way out at 4 am. even blocking off the spot they usually go into doesn't stop them. they just dig another opening and crawl in. oh and did i mention how i nearly killed myself trying to give them a bath.
i was picking up ondoy and and the steps were wet cause they ran off and as i was walking down the steps i slip and fall down the steps. it was only three steps but it hurt like hell. my whole left side of my body is sore and i cant sleep on that side either. but its all swollen and feels like there are rocks embedded in my back and ass.

speaking of dogs i finally watched Marley and me. gosh people told me i would cry but i wasn't expecting it to be that sad. but it was a great movie.

its been an ok week i guess i can say. SO HERES TO A GREATER AND BETTER WEEK!!

a través del universo.....y los BEATLES

everyone has heard of the Beatles I'm sure...and maybe even know that the movie across the universe was a musical of Beatles songs..well i thought i knew that until i watched the actual movie. i didnt realize how amazing the lyricism was. now that i actually paid attention to the songs I'm addicted to them now. all i'm listening to are the Beatles and the covers that across the universe had in the movie..

here are some of the songs that i like a lot. some may be covers by other people because i liked their version of it better..

here is Adam levine from maroon 5:



this is T.V. Carpio who plays Prudence in Across the universe singing i wanna hold your hand



this is Ive just seen a face from across the universe sung by Jim Sturgess

champagne for my real friends real pain for my sham friends..

so yeah this past couple of days have been really eyeopening. some good others not so good. all in all i guess i have to take what ever is there in front of me and learn from it..i leave on Friday to go to Washington D.C. I'll be there for about four days for a academic team competition. hahah hopefully we do well. but yeah i must say that alot has been thrown at me and its all a learning experience.

well today was Fathers day so i got my dad a cake and a card that was hilarious. it was one of those taljing cards and it had the simpsons. need i say more.. yeah my brother got him some clothes cause my dad really needed to be upgraded so that was fun..my mom had a barbecue too: chicken, steak, fried green tomatoes some more cake and some other yummy stuff..my cousin and the fam came over it was fun. we stayed and played with my puppies and made dumb videos on justintv...

oh did i mention my brothers back from iraq! yeah he came in last week after being in iraq for about a year.. im so glad hes back home safe even though the only time i see him is when i got to my dads house and hes always asleep cause he stays out late and i only see his back with a really awesome looking tattoo i havent ever seen before but its awesome...my dads house actually looks like a tornado came through it cause my bro just has everything everywhere. the only things that are accessible is the laptop and the PS3.

but yeah some week ive had thank god i have puppies they love you unconditionally and will always be there for you and thank god for SONIC ! other wise i wouldnt be sipping this awesome caramel hazelnut jave chiller...

my brain is like a sponge that is oversaturated with junk....

ok i dont know where the hell that came from.. but anyways thats how i've been feeling lately. its like i have so much going on and so much to think about i cant retain anything properly..things from school to drill team stuff going on at home going to New Orleans RELATIONSHIPS.i havent been in one since april 1st but that doesnt mean i havent talked to people. the only thing though is that i keep up my end of the stick but someone always lets me down. i hate that so much but i cant help but say its ok and move on. its almost like i cant say no even when i should tell them like it is. now dont get me wrong i say what i want when time comes but certain situations just make me forgive and forget too easily and im afraid that that is one of my biggest flaws...its what always gets me hurt and im sick and tired of the same old games guys have tried to play on me and i cant stand it..almost like they dont understand that sometimes there are girls out there that are worth more than a one night stand or someone that they know is real easy and will put out at the drop of a hat..its like selfworth isnt even in the picture anymore.. why do people do this?? and why do people get that idea of me???

this makes no sense to me at all..i try to be the best that i can be and i have standards but yet this never stops them.. why cant i one day just find that one guy who doesnt care about all that other crap that supposedly makes them "down" with everyone and just rather care about the things in life and the things are special and important instead of putting ona front all the time in front of their boys and "act" like they run things... why cant there be guys who are real and wont put on a show???

anyways enough of my venting.. this has really just bothered me lately. dont get me wrongal guys are not like this at all. its just that now its like a trend to be the type of guy who only looks for the physical things froma relationship..

so yeah!!! im back!!!

yeah i really never went anywhere i just havent blogged or even been online in like almost two months..but yeah alot has changed. school is finally out and i got a job so i guess im trying to gain some sort of independence in my house and i guess its better than my regular routine of always staying home and doing nothing. ive even started working out more often, i guess my idea of having a great senior year is to first look the part. i've kinda slacked on staying in shape cause of stress so hopefully i can use this summer to get me to actually doing something worthinwhile. anyways i work at this nail shop, i guess its all right for a part time job but i feel more like a house maid there. all i do is clean and take nail polish off of people and then my bosses ask me to eat like every ten minutes. but yeah for now its gonna have to do. my first thing i wanted to get out of the way was my license but i thought about it and im putting that on hold for now..i really dont go anywhere even when i want to so theres no point in me trying now when i still need to find the time. but i guess this just gies me more time to practice.

oh and about school, on the last day my instructor talked to us and said tht theres a possibility of him being transferred to another school. like OMGGGGG!!! what the crap..that was like one of my nightmares coming to life..so i guess drill team will nver be the same even thought we start practices next week.. anyways i guess thats a long enough update on the past month..